A New Chapter
3/04/2024 I made myself get up. I cooked spinach mushroom sauce with Swiss brown mushrooms, grilled some chicken, and have an “healthy” instant noodles because, well, I needed something comforting. I hugged my cat and whispered, "I need to hug you, please?" He didn’t resist, just let me hold him, warm and soft against my chest. It was one of those moments where I realized how much I needed something to hold onto. But deep down, something feels off. I’ve been feeling distant from Allah, like my heart is too tired to even reach out. I used to sit on my sajadah, just talking to Him. Now, I don’t. Not because I don’t want to, but because I feel... far. Maybe I’ve wandered too much. Maybe my heart is just exhausted. So today, I tried something small. I listened to Nouman Ali Khan and Omar Suleiman on youtube, letting their words settle in. A tiny attempt to find my way back. And today is Friday. May today become a perfect day for me to reconnect, reflect and tawakkul more and mo...