Examination's Eve

Malam ini, gue cukup terharu. Mama sm papa ga ngepush gue sama sekali. Entah mereka percaya sama gue atau cuma mau bikin gue tenang menghadapi UN.

Terharu, karena ini step terakhir gue di SMA. Bigger step yaitu abis UN harus fight untuk sbmptn dan SIMAK

Terharu, karena... Gue merasa bersalah. Hah. Selama SMA ini, gue kebanyakan mainnya. Seneng2nya. Bahkan ulangan atau ujian penuh trik mulu. Bandel. Iyaa gue bandel:( that's why I feel guilty. Malu sm mama dan papa. Malu gabisa berprestasi lg pas SMA.

Terharu, karena Allah sayang bgt sm gue:'( walaupun gue hina dan penuh dosa ini:'( bahkan guenya yg seakan menjauh dari-Nya. Tapi Allah gapernah ninggalin gue:'(

Dan berbagai macam terharu lainnya.

Untuk temen-temen Malika dari SD sampai sekarang, sepupu, keponakan, ua, tante, nenek, kucing2ku yg nakal, ..... Mohon dimaafkan kesalahan saya yg disengaja maupun tidak sengaja T.T

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